Yellow Spots

When I even contemplate having a pity party.  I force myself to remember all the things that are going right.  I realize that when I was in a state of severe depression, I would take the small things that went wrong and turn them into big boulders.  I came across this quote and it sums it up CLEARLY!

"Some painters transform the sun into a yellow spot, others transform a yellow spot into the sun."  ~ Pablo Picasso

What do you do with the yellow spots in your life?  Do you focus on the negative so much that even the positive looks negative? or do you take that negative and find the good in it? For example, 2 years ago I was fired from a job.  While I could have pursued a case in court with the company, it would have gone on for YEARS in court.  That negative would have been carried from year to year until it was resolved.  A constant reminder of an unhappy event.  At first, I was angry and wanted to take them to the cleaners.  I went to the EEOC and filed my documentation. After months of review, they gave me the "Right to Sue" letter I needed to go to court...yep I would have the opportunity to vindicate myself.  So I ran out, got a lawyer...I was going to exact my revenge...they weren't going to just kick me to the curb like that nope uh-uh...after all I gave up 5 years to them....I would spend large amounts of energy contemplating my next move...and then...as I was in prayer one night, the Lord reminded me of something:  I had a better paying job as a result of leaving there.  I had a better commute because I left there...but the most important thing was this: James 5:16 Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.  So I sat there scratching my head and I was like "What do you mean?"  See let me back up....I HATED my job! I was absolutely miserable there.  The office had been moved about a year and a half prior to that day I was terminated and my commute time had doubled! My workload was unreal and I was unappreciated. I had been half-heartedly looking for another job but truth be told, I was half-heartedly looking until I was in a position (unemployed) where I HAD to look.  So God took me back to that day in March (about a month prior to my termination) where I prayed that He "fix the situation or remove me from it".  So He answered my prayer.  Prayed in haste, Prayed in anger, but it was the meditation of my heart.  I transformed my yellow spot into a sun right then.  I had to let go...I could not pursue vengeance because God had removed me, because I PRAYED for that.  I fired my lawyer, shredded my "Right to Sue" letter, prayed and cried, cried and prayed and then...I let it go.  You can't heal a wound if you keep pulling back the scab.  That scab has healed and it has only left a little scar.  Don't let the bitterness of a lemon keep you from enjoying the sweet drink of the lemonade.  Next time you get a yellow spot, put on some shades and sunscreen, then turn it into your sun.

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